Worst experience on a date

The Christian man that I had talked to online for a long time. He is a published writer – of Christian books. He was visitig the veterans hospital, doing the good deed – and I had made a cake and he was going to be driving by – so invited him for some coffee and cake.

Who would think that a published Christian writer would be a threat of any type….?

So, he accepted. I thought wow, meeting a really wonderful man. Good photographer since he took photos as well. He came in the house, and literally attacked me. If the FBI needed his finger prints – they could have found them on my body.

I suggested that he stop I then took matters into my own hands…. Cough cough… And escorted him out the door. The fool was stupid enough to call me the next day – said he had enjoyed himself – and could we do it again! I have a weirdo magnet on my body somewhere – and would love to get rid of it. I also racked the guy – just a tad to make my point on his way out the door.

Billy

I almost died last December. Didn’t know it was that bad – just didn’t feel good. Drove to the doctors office – they admited me to the hospital. Was there for 5 days and did lots of thinking…..Why the hell are you playing celebate mama – and really wanted to just feel someone’s arms around me again – even if it was without love.

So – one of the few letters that I got that first year that I was on Plenty of Fish, the match site from Billy. He is the country boy up the road – 5 minutes away I found out.

He is thinking that he is making all these smooth moves…. Not knowing that I was guiding him all along to where I wanted it to go. Pretty much tricked the man into sex – and showed him some things – things he hadn’t tried…… Country boy remember – not up on some of the ‘newer’ things outside of horses and the like. Kept the man ‘up’ all night – he is thinking that man he is good…. And wow… Never done that one before….. And can I see you again…..

When I finally confessed to him what I had done – he won’t accept it. Never mind that he had never gone 5 times in one night in his life before – - or that I told him – - well explained some things and why I did what I did…. He still thinks that he was totally in control. Btw – he is still my friend. I call him my human gps – he tells me how to get home when I get lost. And – though he has hinted (as in out and out asking) about sex again – the thought of having to go through all that again – to get him to be able to do what he really doesn’t know how to do – - just is more work than I want to do.

Texas

I asked about the state, Rene’s home, and received a wealth of opinion.

The land of big – big idiots, big egos, and big dreams that for most never come true…. And not to forget it has the biggest bullshitters in the world. Every man thinks he is a cowboy – matters not that he knows nothing about a farm – they all are cowboys!

Horse is a need – but will settle for a motorcycle if that doesn’t pan out. They all wear boots that give them at least 2 inches in height – which is why they all seem to be over six fee tall. They all think that they can dance – and will drag a woman around the dance floor like it or not.

They all think that they look great in wrangler jeans – even though they are baggin in the backside and the cliffhanger over their belt keeps them from seeing those boots that cost them at least $300 bucks! They all drink shiner beer – the beer of Texas – and if they don’t drink that – it is budwiser. Not to forget the big buckle – they all have one of those – doesn’t matter that it isn’t a prize from riding anything at the rodeo – they just have to have one – and they polish the thing too. In many cases, they treat the buckle better than they do their women – or their horse/motorcycle.

Women

To be a Texas woman – you have to have big tits – and wear jeans 3 sizes too small for your butt to fit in. It is a must! First time that I got a complement on a pair of jeans was at the rodeo. Man walked up to me and told me that I had a “cow boy butt.” So called my trusted billy to translate for me – since the comment made me think that he was calling my butt a cow butt. He rolled. It was really cowboy butt – which is seen as a compliment – meaning I filled the jeans well. And no, didn’t wear the ones 3 sizes too small.

Women are seen as objects that are to look a certain way – and to act a certain way – no matter if that way is not the way she really looks, acts, of feels. Women are seen as property similar to the truck/horse/motorcycle – and has to be a current model or they change up to a better model. For men that are married and have the ‘older’ model of Texas woman – they find that flitting about to find a nice young ‘filly’ is not that difficult to do.

A ‘young filly’ usually has the education level of 6th grade and more than willing to do whatever it takes to get free beer at the bar, a ride on the horse/motorcycle/truck, and an evening out so that they can show that they can find a man that is willing to pay for them. And trust me – the men pay. This sort of man is usually at least over 40, have established himself in a job somewhere – and has more credit cards in their wallet than people have photos of their own children.

The ‘young filly’ gets lots of extras that if the Texas man would but do similar for his older model – would find that the older model is more than he can handle – if given the right stimulas – such as more attention given than to the horse/motorcycle/truck. But, Texas man is not on the bright side – and doesn’t figure that out till ‘older model’ finds out about the ‘young filly’ and takes a visit to the lawyer.

It is then that Texas man all of a sudden will open his eyes when he finds out that ‘older model’ is going to take his backside to the cleaners and that his 401k is now in jepordy because of ‘young filly’ – that frankly he is finding that ‘young filly’ doesn’t understand many of the things that he finds normal to know – - things such as Texas married man really can’t stay up all night, every night – cause it messes with his blood pressure medication that he is on – because of the stress of the situation caused by having ‘young filly’ and the ‘older model’ holding him over the fire to roast his oats!

Texas women – the kind of woman that can toss a bale of hay – have a baby on the hip – drive the truck and trailer as good as her man – and pigheaded. Texas women know it all, think that they are the best thing that has ever happened to the planet – and that the planet would not rotate if it were not for them being on it.

Saying, ‘bless their hear’ after any insulting comment is an automatic erasure of insulting comment that is bless their heart. They are allowed their opinion, your opinion – and subject to change at their whim. It is like, ‘bless her heart, she don’t know no better than to sleep around with every man in town – with her curtains open even.’

Texas women are allowed to be any size that they want and all men are to love the size that they are. If they don’t, Texas woman will grab the nearest implement and smack them over the head, bless her heart…..

I am seen as an odd gus. If those women only knew how many times that their husband had hit on me since my husband died – and before – they would think that it was I who had been acting as the ‘young filly’ vs. It being their husband is just a snake in the grass looking for a place to put his snake at my age – too old to be ‘young filly,’ but the fact that unlike most of the ‘older models’ I fight the gravity – they don’t know how to take me.

Delusion

(Mike: It seems as if the “state” lives in a delusion — and it’s self-perpetuated to keep it alive, to give it’s residents an identity. “I am a texan; this is what we do; and then they do it to continue the illusion.“)

Delusion is the name of the game. They see everything as bigger, better, and will always be – and damn the person that goes against them – cause they got their guns, this is Texas.

I went to the rodeo – to actually watch the rodeo – they had to put the show (music) at the end cause no one really wanted to sit through all the rodeo – they really came for the music

it is like telling a texan that their view is not reality – a total unreality that they can not bear to even consider.

Hell, they might have to reconsider their belt buckles, 2 inch high heeled boots, wranglers, and not to forget – the cowboy hat. I had one woman tell me that the man she was with actually wore the damn hat during sex!! I am thinking…. Must have been pretty boring sex if it didn’t knock his hat off!

Texas is the land where everyone thinks that their nationality has a personal right to the state – because! And that is what they say, “just because” as if that is an answer. Mexicans think that we ‘stole’ the state and ignore how Mexico sold it. Germans think that they own it cause they fought Indians – and still talk German in parts of Texas. And then there are the others here…. Orientals, Amreican Indian, Poles, go down the line…. They all want to make the claim that it is because of them that there is such a place as Texas. I am thinking – the reason there is a Texas is cause it is here! Get a grip and get over it! Go to Fredricksburg – lots of Germans there – they are the reason Texas is…..

Religion

Texans never speak ill of a preacher – no matter if he ran off with the organist – or the man down at the stop-n-rob on the corner. Preachers all get a free ride – police will overlook them speeding, running around with another woman (swaggert comes to mind – sure wasn’t his first he was caught with). Cops think that by letting them off of tickets – they get a ticket to heaven.

You can tell lots about a preacher by what he preaches on. If he runs around – he preaches on adultry; if he drinks too much – preaches on bars and the sin of them; if he has a problem with porno – he is against the internet. Preachers are people whom everyone thinks that they want to be like – till they find out that the preacher really is little different than them.

Weird thing – I am a Christian – as in I know that I don’t know all the answers, never would suggst that I do – but sure hope like hell that there is a god in heaven and that if there is a hell I don’t go there! I am the woman that sits in the back of the church – the one that knows what wrong that I did that week – week before – and more than likely making plans to do in the future.

Shiner Beer

Hell – I smoke after I leave the gym – totally texan, have a shiner beer later on tonight – again, totally Texan. Damn state has infected me!! Shiner beer is the first brewery in Texas and still in operation. I think they even still use the first – kettle whatever they call them things to make beer in that they had for the company. Lots drink bud; it is a tossup between the two and no one drinks schlitz!! There are some that like coors – but that is cause they were in the military and brought it back to Texas – so somewhat acceptable.

I drink the shiner bock – a beer acceptable for women to drink in this state

there is one shiner that starts with an “h” – german name – and it is good too – men love it

or they will drink the bock. The blonde and the white, the light?? Women drink it when at bars cause of the diets….